This is the end.

Have you ever wondered how it feels to be emotionally dead? You follow the same routine. Your body does all the work, but your emotions shows no signs or symptoms. You have no feeling of anger, love, lust, happiness etc. which can associate you with the living ones. Only one question comes to your mind why are you alive. This is not the life which you have dreamed off or planned. The only solution which you think right is cutting yourself off from the outer world. Others criticize you of being negative, but you know that your soul has left your body. Everything seems moving except your life. I am sure everyone would have felt it some or the other day. Whatever the case may be, but one thing is sure that this is the end.

Only Time

Sometimes I feel miserable and confused. Why is it so that the so called freedom that we claim to be ours is not actually ours? The freedom is not merely the freedom defined in the constitution, but it is the freedom of doing whatever we like. Why is it so that we waste most part of our life fulfilling other's wishes? Why can't we have time for ourselves, in which we can admire the life,rather than fighting it out for each and everything.Don't we dream of doing the things the way children do or we think of flying like birds or flowing like air because we feel that somewhere we are not free in the true sense. But all seems to be a dream that's why we all wish for our childhood days to be back because only those days reflect the true freedom.I feel that was the only time for me as well.Still searching for that freedom...

Think once...

It didn't started all of a sudden. It was already there somewhere in my mind, all that was required to make it come out was a spark. Today somebody send a video titled "Chicken a la carte" - a short film which was adjudged best short film in 56th Berlin Film Festival, and all of a sudden my mind was full of thoughts that why do we waste those things which are almost life for others. It could be water, money, food or anything else which we feel is our right to waste because we have born in a family which has ensured that each and everything is available to us at the maximum. Sometimes I wonder that whether these common small mistakes that we commit are because we have never been taught by our elders or is simply because we are so arrogant that we don't think that others also have the right to enjoy their lives. Whatever be the reason, but the fact remains the same that we are the reason. Resources that are there are limited and precious and God has provided each and every individual to enjoy them, but we as such ensure that we are the only benefitors. There is no harm in being selfish, but at the cost of other's life is not right. So next time before wasting anything think of your coming generations and imagine how their lives would be in misery and poverty because we never left anything for them. Think once because we will have to...

Trip to Koli Hills

It happened just a day before yesterday only. I was talking to Kumar one of my friends regarding the project work when all of a sudden my other friend Sameer entered the room. We were not amazed, as it was his habbit to come into our rooms all of a sudden as a surprise package. Nevertheless I was hoping to hear some comments from him regarding our college or something new which I was not aware, when all of a sudden he asked us whether we would like to join him in a trip to kolimallai hills which was supposed to be around 150 kms farway from our campus. For a change from the boring college life and burdensome classes our reply was yes. So as a part of esssentiality I took the relevant information from Sameer like who others were coming, time and how we were going. After having a cumbersome chat we departed wishing night wishes to each other.Next day we were supposed to start at 4:30 am. As usual I set the alarm on my Mobile phone for 4:15 am so that I can become fresh before going. But like always I couldn't wake up at that time. I was dreaming heavily when all of a sudden I felt a knock on my door. I tried to ignore it, but it went louder and louder. Finally I had to give up and I was just about to wake up when I heared a faint voice. I was wondering who it could be, when I realized it was DC who has come to wake me up. So seeing no alternatives I had to give up my beautiful dreams and wake up finally. In a few minutes I was ready to set it for sail. But to my amazement when I came out and found that I was the first one to get ready. Well after about 1 hour time all were ready to go except Amit who decided to join us at the last moment.

Somehow we were able to start our journey in two cars, one which we got from Kunal and the other one which we have booked for our journey. With less ease and more difficulty we were able to adjust ourselves in two cars 5 in each. In mine Sachin, Deepak, Amit, Abheek were there and it was being driven by Nithin. So we started enjoying the journey whole way through. We were singing songs all the time. After reaching halfway all of us started feeling hungry so we decided to have breakfast somewhere. Atlast we found a decent hotel and ate like anything. We again started our journey, but this time I shifted to the other car with Abheek, Sameer, Kumar and Ankit . I was told on the way ny Nithin that there will be around 70 hairpins on the way and aswe approached the way we found the way to be very beautiful and interesting. At times we thought as if we have lost the track, but somehow we reached the Koli Hills.

After coming out of the car my first impression was not very good compared to mussourie and other hill spots this place was comparingly much more unexplored and not very impressive to be called as a tourist spot. But then we all started moving towards the waterfall. It was amazing to reach the spot because first we had to cross more than 500 steps and then big rocks. I alongwith four other friends reached the waterfall first because the others were more busy on taking on snaps on the steps. We decided not to step into the water untill all were there so we also started taking snaps at the waterfall. Finally everybody arrived and we all decided to step into the waters. To describe this place had a huge waterfall with big rocks on which water was pouring down with great force and from the point where we were there was water in between which we had to cross by swimming or by the means of roaps which were sinking into the water.

Kumar was the first to reach toward the waterfall through an alternative path through the huge rocks, but I decided to swim across and was the first one to reach by the conventional way through the waters.Slowly everybody started entering into the water and all of us reached just below the waterfall. The last one to reach was Sameer who is not only eldest of us, but was a bit scared to do anything like that because of no prior experience. So the party started we enjoyed under the water for around 2 hrs. After that slowly we all came out and now it was the snap time. We took a hell lot of snaps there posing like models. But the best was yet to come. When we all started climbing up it was like a punishment. All of us felt energyless while climbing, but the biggest problem were with nithin and Sameer who were the heavyweights among us. Somehow we managed to reach back towards our cars. But before moving on we decided to eat something. Luckily snacks were available so we had them.

The journey started again, we again started enjoying the way singing and discussing about common issues until I asked Sameer who is from Mumbai about the delicacies of Maharashtra. He gave a lot of info to us which made my mouth watering. On the way back as we stopped at some place, we were amazed to see Emus being grown in a building. When we enquired we get the info that those people were growing them for there egg and flesh (Quite weiry!!) On the way again we had the lunch on the same restaurant where we had our breakfast. This time the experience was not good unlike morning. Finally we reached back to our hostels around 8:45 pm and our journey came to an end.

Nevertheless it was a memorable day and journey never to forget...

Where is the barrier-In minds or hearts?

Well it's all been happening around and I can't stop feeling about it. Whether most of us may or may not be a part of it, but will surely agree that whatever the matter is, it can't be neglected. I am talking about the small topographies which we all have created around us because of one simple reason that we have been brought up in some part of India which we think is entirely different from that of the others.

The first question which comes to my mind is "Why". The more I try to find the reason the more I suspect the thinking power and the rationale of we the Indians. It doesn't mean that others don't do this, but while trying to project ourselves to be one of the fastest growing economy we are setting a wrong example.

Is it something to do with our minds or hearts? Well the answer is not as simple as it seems. If u try to give the benefit of doubt to the minds then you will say that because our hearts have lost their purity we are differentitaing among ourselves. On the other hand the other lot may blame the corruption of mind to be the reason, but what so ever be the reason it's against us the "Indians".

I guess may be most of us don't know the answer. But we all will agree that the barrier is there somewhere in our mind as well as in our heart. All we need is reverting back to our values, ethics and beliefs which were the and will be the only reason for us to remain as Indians and not as an Individual belonging to a particular state or sect..

I hope I made myself clear!!